终于得到成果了！

2011年12月23日 星期五

        我多次请求经理让我去楼下的展览摊子工作，终于如愿了，可是必须推销我还不在行的Canon相机。带着战战兢兢的心情到楼下，遇到之前早已认识的前辈Marcus,他知道我在店里工作时没有任何人给予指导，便用了一整天的时间耐心地教导我，我真感激这位又帅又热心的前辈，哈哈。而相反地，我身旁的那位新搭档却显得冷漠不已，原来他从来没卖过相机，只是有多次的销售经验。。。多次的销售经验？？他的工作态度还真的令我感到讶异。

        接近傍晚时分，有个来自印度的人来到档口看相机，一个正休假的前辈Tomson就帮忙推销，他三两下功夫就成功哄到客人买相机了，却叫我和他一同为顾客检货写单，单上写的是我的名字！！！我卖到了一架相机？？ 虽然有少许不劳而获，而我会加倍努力，真真正正以自己的实力做出一点成绩来的。

再见浮罗交怡。

2011年12月22日 星期四

         今天要离开浮罗交怡了，在酒店吃了自助餐就登出酒店。浮罗交怡实在有太多海滩我们还没去，所以我们决定利用剩下的几个小时去探索，去欣赏最后一刻的海景之美。到了海边，我还是例行常事拾贝壳，这次我可神气了，我拾到了两个小螺壳，终于找到和平日不同的收藏了！我带着那仅有的稚气跟父母炫耀，炫耀我当下的满足感和喜悦。

        之后我们去一间别有格调的咖啡厅Sun Cafe 享用午餐，一下车就刮起了大风，头顶上的帽子，手上的卫生纸，还有瘦弱的我，都差点被风吹走，之后还引来一阵耻笑><

         到了机场，我看到那里有个电动按摩的招牌，就试试看，反正价格也不贵,第一次作按摩的说，很舒服^^。之后我们便登机，一切程序比在吉隆坡机场还时还要顺利。之后终于在下午五时半回到吉隆坡国际机场。

         总合来说，在这四天的旅程，让我第一次体验航空之旅，连吃三天海鲜大餐，兜了无数远路，和家人玩赛车和参观水族馆。。。虽然那里不如吉隆坡那么繁华发达,但那里的大自然景色足以媲美这里的高楼大厦。难忘的浮罗交怡之旅。

购物疯狂，疯狂玩乐！

2011年12月21日 星期三

        昨晚实在太累了，因为和家人一起去浮罗交怡水族馆，看看住在海底世界的“朋友们”。其中看到许多大大小小的生物，一只站在最前线抢镜头的非洲企鹅,爱装酷的冠企鹅，一对像情侣般头贴着头睡觉的海濑，一看见我就避开我的鲨鱼O.o,妈妈看见就说要用咖喱蒸煮的魔鬼鱼，两只用“舌吻”来格斗的不知名鱼儿。。。最重要的是，我终于可以和家人一块儿游玩，父母不方便的关系就让我们只能留在家里，或是等毕业旅行这些机会，这次能够和家人共享天伦之乐，满足非常。之后去当地著名的免税商店“潮顺发”扫货，买了好多巧克力和酒（当然酒不是我买的）。我还在那里以半价折扣买到运动鞋，划算的血拼之旅让我非常开心。

        而今天，我们的第一站是去赛车场玩赛车。我和姐姐各自与爸妈作搭档，从来不知如何开车的我与爸爸同行，其中和爸爸配合得不错，只是偶尔会忘我地乱踩油门，幸好没什么意外事故，哈哈哈哈！我在过程中一直不停地狂呼好玩，更开心的，是能够和爸爸度过这美好的时光。下一站，我们到黑沙滩看海。刚到那儿我就已经开始疯狂购买纪念品，和平时节俭的我真有田穰之别。走到海边，哇，那海沙还真的是黑色的，我毫不犹豫地走下去，几乎把拖鞋“抛”了出去。把脚浸入海水中，海水冰凉的温度渗透皮肤里，我跟着把手也浸了一浸，感受那“大海无量”的气息。不停在寻找贝壳，然而找到的总是活生生的蛤蚌><。之后在海滩找到一个心形的红石头，那时我好兴奋。看见石头被黑色的细沙包围，我决定拿些海水洗干净，不料却海浪把石头的一半给“冲走”，剩下另一半在我手中，无奈的我只好把石头丢掉，怎么那石头会那么脆弱啊？！

       我们这三天的晚餐都是吃海鲜，从来都没那么“和味”，第二天还学人吃龙虾呢！吃完后我说，“这是我人生第一次吃龙虾哦！”接着爸爸也说，：“这也是我人生第一次吃龙虾。”“可见这位的第一次体验总是来得太早。”姐姐开始揶揄我。的确，我很幸运能够体验这一切。明天我得回去吉隆坡，不会忘记这段难忘美好的旅程。

冲上云霄

2011年12月19日 星期一

        抛开工作的烦恼，今天和家人一起去浮罗交怡游玩。早上10点到达机场，却发现比入境时间整整早了两个小时，哈哈，我们惟有在那里耐心等待。然而之后发生了小事故，要为爸妈找寻登机入口，工作人员说要找残障人士服务台，却并没有指示正确方向。兜了一个大圈，却发现柜台没有任何人。等了大概十分钟，我忍无可忍，走进柜台里有没有什么名片联络负责人，当正要拿起电话时，一位工作人员才慢步走过来。他一副嚣张的模样，还不客气地问我"Why you go inside?"。本来早已有些不满的我被他惹火了，"Why there's no people?!"带着墨镜的我，加上严厉的语气让他无话可说，不过还真的想不到我可以跟一个陌生人对质，可能是出来工作的关系，胆子越来越大了:P
         闲着的时候就无所事事，时间到了却紧张不已。在吃午餐的时候发现登机时间已接近，平时进餐如此慢条斯理的妈妈开始狼吞苦咽，最后大家只好把食物偷偷放入行李中一起带走！ 检验过程中，还是被工作人员抓包，虽然没采取任何行动，但他惊呼：“怎么带了那么多薯条啊？”场面有的是尴尬和爆笑。
        办理了麻烦的登机程序后，终于看见飞机了,真是个“大乡里”，我不停地念“好大架既飞机啊！好大啊！”飞机起飞的那一刻，脑里回旋着港剧《冲上云霄》的主题曲《岁月如歌》。飞机就像鸟儿展起“翅膀”的那刻，我的心也开始激动起来，。感觉到自己“徐徐上升”，离地面越来越远，我往下望，所有的景物就像地图的图标那么小。穿梭片片云层时，那种兴奋之情真的无法用千言万语来形容，我还看到像小狗的一块云儿呢！
         到了浮罗交怡，我们去预订的酒店办理登入手续。这家叫Bella Vista的酒店像个城堡一样壮观，跟平日在吉隆坡的四方建筑物别有特色，我对这西式风格的酒店特别钟情。晚上到大港饭店吃海鲜大餐，自考试和工作的日子，我已经好久没吃得那么开心了，期待明日的旅程。

考试终于结束！The End Of SPM War

2011年12月7日

接近下午一时，手掌仍然紧抓着蓝色钢笔，用力地在卷纸上疯狂地挥动着，还有十分钟考试即将结束，我希望能够把毕生的“功力”发挥在文章上。还剩五分钟，终于把四页的文章画上句点。迅速地翻查几遍后，华语试卷作答时间终于结束。

    老师把一本本的卷纸书收集好，我们大家握紧拳头，每位考生都期待着老师开口的那一刻，“好了，考试结束了，你们可以离开考场。”

“耶！！！”

全体考生欢呼起来，胜利的一刻终于到来了，大家终于都熬过这纸上的兵战。大家终于能够轻松自如地步出学校，这种愉悦的气氛终于恢复了！然而，这一天却是我穿中学制服的最后一天，这难免还是会有一点不舍。虽然这整个月的考试让我感到很大压力，很疲惫，但其实我很享受当下的过程，尤其是在考试前大家一起复习功课的那一刻。平日的审评测验，大家都是独自坐在自己的座位上作最后的温习，顶多也只是一两个同学围绕着一张桌子进行讨论。而这一次，大家齐坐在食堂的那张长凳子，你一言我一语的说，“喏，等下回答这个问题时不可以照着原文作答哦！”“还有还有，要熟记这个谚语，待会儿的考试可能会出这题”“还有不准用修正液修改，写错字就用钢笔删掉好了”大家在这“终极测验”付出了所有的努力，还有少见的团结精神，难能可贵。

依稀记得几个月前在上补习课的休息时间，大家都在讨论着考试后的“人生计划”。“考试后我要看很多很多的韩剧！”“考试后我要去动漫展！”“考试后我要把所有书本丢掉！”看见大家说得如此兴奋，我开始动脑筋要提出一些乍舌的“计划”。想好了，我便假装兴奋地说，“考试后我要谈恋爱！”在我身旁的小恩早已对我的招数麻木，但令我讶异的是，在后座的小樱和小猪提高嗓子对我说：“厚？？可俐！！！你要谈恋爱！！！”整个课室都听到了吧，我尴尬地笑说，“呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵。。。。开玩笑”

本来早已计划好考试后的计划，小学聚会，健迷聚会，圣诞派对，倒数派对。。。但全都打消了！源于上个星期我去搜寻工作时，在购物广场内看见一家相机店外贴着一张征聘启事，看起来条件不错。我踏入相机店，便开口，“请问这里还有请人吗？”（废话，那启事是来干嘛的？）一位女经理便叫我填写资料，还问我几时能来上班。明显地，那里处于人手不足的状态。心想可以挣多点外快，我便答应了。而我这个月也会出游，这个假期算没白过吧！

                It was nearly 1pm, my palm still gripped on a blue-inked ball pen, sketching on the answer papers with my whole effort. It remains 10 minutes for me to develop all my technique and writing skills in the essay, I did it in the last 5 minutes and I still have some time to recheck my answer.

                Time’s up. The invigilators collected the answer booklet one by one. All of us held our hands tightly, waiting for the moment when the invigilator opened her mouth, “The exam is over. All of you may go out of exam hall now.”

“YAY!!!”

                Shouts of joy were spreaded by candidates around the exam hall. All of us were so glad that we finally went through the “exam war”. What I could hear were the laughters and footsteps of cheer.  It was great and yet, I felt attached to the school compound as it was the last day I stayed at school. During the exam season,  although it was stressful to face each exam but I enjoyed it too， especially the moment when we did revision at the last minute before exam together. In common, most of us were staying at our own places and studying ourselves, as in at best there were two person gathered at one table and started their group study. However, it was so surprised that we could sit on a bench in canteen and started our conversation before the exam,"Hey girls, when you answer this question later, you must change the structure of sentence okay?""Hey memorize this idiom, it may come out in exam!""Remember not to take liquid corrector!" It seem we put lots of effort and valuable cooperation in this "Ultimate Test"!

               I remembered few months ago, we were chatting about our plan after exam during rest time in tuition class."I wanna watch as much Korean drama as I can!""I wanna go anime fair after exam!"" I wanna throw all my books after exam!" I tried to think hard about my "life plan" to give them a shock." I wanna get in love after SPM!" Obviously, Kelly who sat beside doesn't any response (as she already knew my characteristic), but Ying and Piggie who stayed behind us were shocked and turned in a loud voice，"Kellie are you serious?? Who you wanna get in love with?? Oh my god!!!" Seem they were more excited than me, I was so embarrassed as I thought the whole class were listening our conversation for a joke I made.

              I have made a good plan after exam, primary school gathering, Dicky fans gathering, Christmas party, countdown party.....It was bad that I have to cancel all the event! This is because the "job hunting" on

last week. I found out a recruitment notice on the board outside a shop called Camera Zone, and the condition was not bad too. I asked when I stepped into the shop, " Is there any vacancy here?" (It is a lousy question as I already know that it is) The manager requested to me to fill a form and asked me that when I can start my job. O.o Seemed I even don't have any choice and I might earn some extra income,I finally accepted the job. Although I don't have enough time to take a rest, but I still can fill up my schedule with a trip (as I get permission from the manager as well).Wish me a happy holiday! Yay!

多谢陈峰。Thanks Chan Fong.

2011年12月2日

           星期五的夜晚，雨天令人觉得好睏，但雨天也不停地令我想起不开心的事。我承认，自己还没有释怀过梦格已经离开的事实，但却拼命地强迫自己去面对现实。在昨天和朋友出去时，我才感觉到那前所未有的孤寂，加上一个晚辈的离开，让我倍受打击，整个旅程我难受极了，根本就没心情再流连那陌生地带。朋友们到底去了哪？为什么人潮拥挤，却像是只有我一人？

          漫长的雨夜，我想起988电台有个节目叫大城心事，上个星期听到主持人陈峰倾听听众们的心事，我尝试打电话去电台，没想到那么多年没有参与call in 环节，还真的打通了，“喂，你好”陈峰的声音在听筒出现，我开始有点紧张，但接着我就像咨询心理医师那样，对陈峰说出自己心中的那个结。说着说着我开始哽咽了。

          陈峰说，“如果觉得伤心的话让自己伤心吧，难过就不要逞强。时间会冲淡一切。”我问他，“有个朋友话，面对亲人o既离去，都需要一年半载的时间黎恢复情绪，甘我系唔系都需要甘长时间去忘记伤痛啊？”他说未必，还叫我凡事可以换另一个角度看。

          他教我尝试在每一天早上对着镜子说:假如，今天是我人生的最后一天，我该怎么做？有些人会把握那一天，把自己的任务做好；有些人则会先去给家人一个温暖的拥抱。但不管是什么方式，这做法的目的就是要提醒自己好好珍惜当下，因为我们永远不知道，未来将会有什么事情发生。最重要的，就是让自己每一天都能够活得开心，活得精彩。我这个年纪虽然面对生离死别虽然早，但得提醒自己，为了在天上的好友，我必须要活得更好，而且要更加珍惜在我身边的朋友们。也说了一句“我能了解你当下既感受，节哀，加油啊。”我就向他道谢再就赶快盖了电话。然后，不停地哭泣，继上次她离开的那天，我好久没有肆无忌惮地大哭了。接下来，有一位叫苏先生打电话进来安慰我，还有一个叫阿Ann的听众。她是一位有肾病问题的视障人士，需要经常洗肾，知道自己随时都回离开这个世界。但她积极面对每一天，说死亡是重生的开始，对她的体悟非常钦佩。。

        现在已经觉得好多了，陈医生用他那把浑厚的嗓子为我解心事，果真是听君一席话，让我的心顿时来个大解放。本来今天陈峰因出国公干而可能不会主持节目，没想到他在晚上九点半就到了机场。我还很幸运地成为今天的第一名听众，这可能就是一种缘吧。不过有点不好意思，我看到陈峰面子书的留言，让许多听众哭了，真抱歉，呵呵。希望我能像惊涛骇浪中生活的海鸥，在怒吼的大海上高傲地飞翔。

          Friday night, rain makes people feel tired, too, makes me think off the sad memory.I admit that I still can't let go her death, but forced myself to accept the truth.Went out with friends yesterday,I can feel the loneliness deep in my heart.The death of my relatives that i knew today makes my mood worse.I feel bad along the journey,I even refused to stay longer at the strange places.Where did my friends go? Why I'm alone as there were over-crowded people in the complex?

          At the endless rainy night, A night radio programme called Share Your Stories called to my mind.I have a sudden idea to call to 988 fm to shout out my voice.It is so lucky, I succeed to call in. DJ Chan Fong's voice appeared in the phone,“ Hello”I started to tense, but I soon felt relax and told my problems to Chan, like those patients  who consulted a doctor.I started to weep when telling my stories.

         Chan said,“Express your sadness if you really feel sad, this is not a need to pretend yourself.Time can cure everything." I asked him that is it need a long period to make me recover, he answered me that is not  necessarily.  He too, asked me to look the matter at the other side.

         He taught me, face the mirror in every morning, and asked myself, “What should I do if today is the last day of my life?" Some will try their best to complete their tasks well, some will grab their chances to give their family a big hug.No matter what they do, this method is to remind ourselves to cherish the moment we have, because won't know what will come to us on the next seconds.The most important thing, that is, spend everyday happily.Maybe it is too early for me to face the fate,but I should remind myself, I must live happier and better for my best friend on heaven, and treasure what I have right now, especially family and friends.He said,“I understand your feeling, deepest condolences from me, cheer up." After thanked to him, I ended up the call quickly and started sobbing. Since the day she left us, I didn't released myself for such a long time.There's two person called in too to console me, one is Mr.So, and lady called Ann.She is a blind who have kidney illness,she needs to do dialysis frequently and may left the world in anytime.But she is strong enough to face it, and said that death is the starting of rebirth.I admired her so much.

        I feel better right now.‘Dr. Chan' use his deep and mature voice to console my heart.It works as it is a single conversation across a table with a wise man.He may absent the programme this week as he had to abroad the sea.However he back to here finally and I was so lucky to become the first audience.Maybe it is our fate too.But I felt sorry that I makes many audience  cried of my stories.I hope that i could be a seagull on the terrifying waves,flies on the roaring sea with a great soul.

那些年，我们一起追的女孩

2011年12月1日 部落格重新开张，
 跟朋友一起去电影院看《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》
挺感动的，
 虽然内容被九把刀自己删改了许多，
可是带出了一个很重要的讯息：
人不停地追寻生活的圆满，
然而有时候事实却与愿望相反，
导演改编的版本显示出他对那份感情的奢望，
然而不管怎么改，
也改不了小说中的真实结局。
正正地提醒了我们，
 要好好把握现在， 要好好珍惜当下，
 因为人生就是要不停地战斗！ 

看完了电影真的好想回家，
岂料种种事情让我必须逗留在购物广场。
可能我的心情还没完整地恢复，
人海茫茫， 我还是觉得好孤单，
而且无法为我停滞下来的朋友们让我想自私地要她们陪伴着我，
 我知道不会有用，
这阵子，
发生太多事了。
突然来袭的噩耗像骇浪接踵而来，
知道自己面临着低潮时期，
不管怎么样， 我都要让自己勇敢，
我知道， 这只是需要一点时间而已。